Today is one of those days where I question everything in my life. Am I really that happy? Is my school program what I want? What will I do after I graduate and have accumulated loads of debt? Where should I live when I get back home in August? I even question whether I should be single or in a relationship. I love my boyfriend very much, but I have so much work I need to do on myself. I don't feel like I am a capable functioning person yet. I have so many demons in my closet. On top of this I have the constant battle in my head about weight, food, calories, gym, etc. Why can't it leave me be.
In 30 days (May 24) I will leave my home and travel abroad until August 16. Until then I feel trapped in my life. Routine has grown old and I am losing that vitality and energy for life I used to have. I just want to shed all my duties and obligations right now, hop on a plane, and leave. BUT I must stay here for 30 more days. I suppose I still have much more to do until I leave. Tie up all the loose ends before I depart. I will try and post as much as I can while I am traveling.
My itinerary for May 24 - August 16 (rough outline, subject to change)
May 24 - May 28: New York City
May 28 - June 29: Vienna, Austria and surrounding cities (Budapest, Prague, Munich, and Salzburg)
June 29 - July 11: Barcelona and Oviedo, Spain and Lisbon, Portugal
July 11 - 21: Southern France and Switzerland
July 21 - 28: Northern Italy and Southern Germany
July 29: Fly into Portland, Oregon
July 30 - August 2: Drive up to Seattle, Washington
August 2 - August 16: Work and live on Mt.Hood, Oregon
August 16: Drive home.
I can't wait to leave. I need to escape for a couple months and revitalize my soul. My fire is smoldering inside...(yes that was a play on AFI).