Monday, April 11, 2011


Snowboarding, class, homework, and lots of walking.

Calories eaten = 1,000

Calories burned = 1,200

Weight = 125.4 lbs.


Perhaps a goal? 120 lbs is sounding pretty good.

I had a thought today: I love life and I love so many things about it right now. I have the best boyfriend a gal could ask for. I have a funny dog. I love school (nerd). I am traveling Europe for all of June and July with the best girl ever (more about Europe later). Yet, I get these insane depressive episodes of utter and complete unhappiness. Often times it comes out as irrational behavior that confuses and frustrates my boyfriend. Lately I have been consciously making an effort to stop my toxic way of thinking. I don’t want to ruin my relationship due to my inability to distinguish between reality and the demons in my head. The thought of losing this guy in my life is devastating. I know, I know, that sounds so cliché, but I know he is the one. He is my best friend, the peanut butter to my jelly.  My boyfriend knows I have this blog. He refers to it as my secret blog in a cute, loving way. He said he wouldn’t read it unless I give him permission. Perhaps one day I will…..


  1. Lol, my guy says the same thing! He even knows the URL but won't read it unless I give him permission. I have given him the go-ahead to read posts that I am particularly proud of, lol. This leads to awkwardly deflecting compliments on my shitty writing >.<

    Ooooh, I'm gonna borrow that turn of phrase. I'd say Miles is the peanut butter to my bananas XD


  2. Ha! I love your comment :-) I'm glad I'm not only one who has told the bf about secret blogs ha ha. Mmmmm Peanut butter and bananas are probably a better combo than jelly.