Friday, May 6, 2011

It's Always Sunny....

Oh hello there.

It's a lovely friday evening where I am. I have been having some weird stomach issues. I think it is linked to stress and some bad nights of drinking a bit too much wine. It's been good for appetite suppression, but for overall well being. I need to get to the bottom of what's stressing me out.

Let's see....I am stressed from: 
1. Upcoming trip.
2. Leaving my dog and boyfriend for 2 months.
3. Stomach pains.
4. Tying up the loose ends for my trip (paying bills, shutting off internet, etc.)
5. My future.

I need to stop stressing out about my future. I know my trip will be fun and I need to stop stressing about it. 

I need to get a grip on reality. My boyfriend loves me and is not going to cheat on me while I am gone. BUT I am too insecure and scared. Why? I don't know why. Because my past demons won't leave me alone. Not all guys cheaters, but I just assume so. 

I look in the mirror and I think "Why would anyone love me?"
I am not beautiful like the rest. I am not inspiring or special. 
I am just me. Sad, pathetic me. 

Well this turned out to be such a pity party of a post. 

Don't let me poopy mood get you down, it's Friday night! And like Rebecca Black says, it's the best night of the week. All the cool kids go out on Friday.


1 comment:

  1. awll ): well cheer up! like you said, your going on a trip for a couple of months. just think about all the fun you'll have when your away. let go of some of that stress sistaaah! haha and if you were "sad and pathetic" your boyfriend would be with another girl but he's not, hes with you. hmmm... maybe because your an awesome chick? i think so (: